Dear Baby boy,
I am aware that your “aggression” comes from the need to protect me as you probably sensed how I feel deep inside of me. The insecurities, the imbalance of emotions, the self-doubt and the fears… Sorry that I am always hugging you to cry when I’m struggling, perhaps that made you worry even more.
I am sorry that because of me you had to go through this which is affecting your life. You constantly have to be uptight, on alert, be tense and angry that you can’t really fall into deep sleep and be at peace; which I know it is extremely tiring for you.
I really wish you could be like your little sister being so carefree and going into deep sleep that even when I disturbed her she wouldn’t even open her eyes.
How I wish you would understand that there is no need to protect me as there is no one that would hurt me as in physically so there is really no need to protect me. I know I am weak but not physically so please please please enjoy your life instead of protecting me, it would make me feel much much better if you do so.